It's a New Year

So this is my first post of 2010. I originally planned on posting this before new years but I got lazy. I can honestly say that 2009 has probably been the roughest on me both emotionally and physically. I've learned a lot about myself through my experiences and for that I can be thankful. Although actually having to go through each experience was 'rough' to say the least. I think I spent a lot of 2009 seeking as opposed to being content with what I have or letting things happen naturally and exercising patience/trust. The whole knee injury was almost the "perfect" ending to one of the worst years I can remember. I'm looking forward to a new year and putting everything from 2009 behind me.

Of course not everything in 2009 was bad, I graduated college in May, had a relaxing summer/fall and was able to more or less do nothing and just spend time with friends. Took a couple trips to AC, went to OSU, went to VTech, is there somewhere I'm forgetting? Of course who can forget the countless visits to CP. I also got hired to perhaps my top company, Accenture and I start the new year off with a new job. I'm excited for the opportunity that i have been blessed with and intend on making the most of it.

2010 will be different from previous years (obvious statement right?) in the sense that this will be the first year I won't have to go to school. I'm starting my career at Accenture as a Deployment Congifuation Specialist and who knows what from there. Working 9-6, waking up at 6:30 in the morning, my whole life style will just have to be different. In a sense I'll have to live more efficiently because I won't have all the time in the world to do things like I have the past 8 months. The spontaneity in my life is slowly disappearing. I'll have to schedule times just to see friends and6 I'll no longer be able to eat lunch with people. I guess it's the official start of my "adult" life (well semi since I'll still be living at home and not exactly paying for all of my living expenses). No more days of mommy writing my a sick note so I don't have to go to school, or skipping class just because I'm feeling lazy. Entering the real world doesn't seem so exciting does it? I officially open a new chapter in my life tomorrow (cliche, i know you love it) and I'm just having a bunch of mixed feelings, anxious, nervous, excited. Dreading the waking up at 6:30 AM and the hour+ commute but excited about learning new things and moving forward in life. Hao Min you know how I'm feeling right?

I also have surgery in February, the dates not set yet but I meet with my doctor on Friday to talk about options, I'm hoping by some miracle that he says I don't need surgery but I don't think my luck is that good. I'm trying to be as smart as I can about it and rehabbing hard and doing my best not to strain it so I can get healthy again asap.

Something I hope I improve on in 2010 is not trying to be "too nice" if there is such thing. I mean that I shouldn't try to please everyone and I should keep my close friends closer and not worry about what the outside world thinks about me. Often if I just meet someone I'll try and be too nice and it gets me in trouble. I know this sounds lame to say but if your own mother can recognize this and tells you to toughen up it's got be true right? I hope to be smarter in dealing with relationships/friendships both new and old.

So here's to moving forward and not looking back, learning from past experiences but not dwelling on them.

P.S. I know this post was all over the place I wrote it in pieces like 5 days apart