It's a weird feeling that I'm 3 weeks away from being 20% done with PT school. Time seems to fly by here (except on Tuesdays and Fridays when I'm in class for 8 hours) but I'm doing better this term than I did last term. However, I still have a lot of improving to do. I've come to the realization that my class is extremely smart with most of our exam averages being in the upper 80s and I'm typically not that that high. I consistently place pressure on myself and am stressed on a regular basis even though I try not to be. The majority (if not all) of my classmates consistently do well and my grades are just not on par with them making it hard for me not to be stressed. I'm fortunate that my classmates are extremely supportive and encourage me regularly. I have no trouble admitting that I'm not as smart as a lot of my classmates but I know that just means I need to work that much harder. I also know I have a lot of improving to do with regards to my study habits, my confidence and feeling the need to compare myself to others. Regardless of what I think, God's placed me here for a reason and who am I to question His plan? It's in my nature to worry/stress and I know that will probably never go away until I finish school/boards but all I can do now is continue pushing through.
Here's to striving to be better and stronger in 2013.
P.S. I know this post may sound like the others I've posted about PT school but my life is PT school right now.
